Why Do You Suppose

Why do you suppose
even for each of those
from whom no goodness shows,
on and on life goes?
If none want to stay,
and all want them away,
then tell me why, I pray,
they remain today.

I keep praying for God to kill me, and he won't do it. He won't even give me the bravery to do it myself. He just keeps me here, unhappy, unfruitful, a miserable stain on my family, friends, and everything they could be. There are so many good people around me and he doesn't even care enough about them to take me out of their way.

Vanessa Carlton is in My Head Today

This song is more or less everything I'm feeling lately.

A Few Small Things

If a BETTER you
is NOT a you,
then what a tiresome thing to do,
to KILL a you
to MAKE a you
over and over before you are through.

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When others know the things I did,

praises from their lips will pour

out about those things I did.

They say, "People should do them more!"

Yes, many love the things I did.

Just not the one I did them for.

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But what relief is there to give,

what newfound cure to try

on they who lack a reason to live

yet lack the courage to die?